So allow me tell you all a little about myself. My name is Kimberly and I am a single Mom to a wonderful 8 year old girl and man is it challenging. I never thought I would be a single Mom you know. I’m sure like most of you, your dream life was programmed in your head to get married with money lol, a house with a white picket fence, and than kids right? Yeah ok, but reality is real and most people do not have that marriage white picket fence lifestyle. And you wind up feeling sorry for yourself and wondering How the hell did I get here? (Oh and by the way i do curse so if you are sensitive to curse words no need to read any further I’ll live) That was me, asking why did I do this to my beautiful daughter? Did I ruin her life by being single? as she sees so many other people that are married with a house and cars. Whereas I am struggling day by day to stay afloat and ensure she is good. At one point I thought what about me? I had to ask myself What makes Kim happy? I had to discover myself knowing what this new person who is myself enjoys. I had to realize that I am not just a Mom nor do i want to be “just a Mom”. So i had to dig deep inside of myself and heal, heal the past childhood trauma, and current trauma and read, journal and most importantly laugh again with myself and with my daughter.
i had to rebuild myself again one day at a time. I started reading the Bible, listening to subliminal messages, Youtube motivational videos, yoga at home, fun work out videos at home and now this beautiful Blog, I created this blog not only to help others feel good about themselves but to help me grow as well. I created the Journey2 selflove for all of us to love ourselves again. When we feel like we have no one else to love us I need us to know we have ourselves to love always and forever. We must love ourselves through it all. So although there is no ring, no white picket fence there is me and I and the hard truth that I am responsible for 2 beautiful souls myself and my daughter’s and everyday i am succeeding.
I had to realize that I have love surrounding me on a daily basis and I want to share that love with you all. I realized that I Am love with light radiating through me for myself, my daughter and you all. Although right now my love is not a romanticized love it is however, The kind of love that packs daily lunches (I cant wait until she loves school lunch lol), wipes tears both mine and hers, and whispers, “We’re going to be okay” when no one else is around to say it. I have to remind myself that often, and that is ok. There were nights when I cried alone, yes. But there were also mornings filled with quiet strength — a strength I never knew I had until I needed it. I don’t have a husband, but I have a heart full of resilience. I don’t have the classic fairytale. But I have a life that I Am learning to rewrite everyday, and that gives me hope. My love and resilience puts a smile on my face, because I know that I am creating my life page by page, day by day.
I’m building a home of laughter, resilience, love, and hugs. My story doesn’t look like the ones in movies but it’s mine and I’m ok and you are and will be to. I’m sending so much light and love and great energy to you all, we’ve got this one moment at a time.
With loving kindness
KIm
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